The Obedience that Frees

The Obedience that frees: When fear is overcome by obedience, true freedom is achieved.

Initially, I believed I was sufficiently obedient. However, there came a day when obedience called upon me, and I found myself struggling to respond.

In 2023, when I was informed about my new mission to Ghana, my homeland, I felt a mix of happiness and fear. Although I was pleased to serve in my motherland, fear gripped me, leading me to, for the first time, decline the orders from my Congregational leaders. I realized this mission was significant, as it marked the Congregation’s first mission in Ghana following the declaration of the Sisters of Jesus Mary Joseph as a Religious Institute of Pontifical Right. Additionally, I understood the weight and responsibility placed on the pioneers of such a mission.

Interestingly, my superiors did not immediately reject my response. They seemed to retreat, not pressing the matter further. This gave me space to reflect on their request. I admitted to myself that fear was blocking my sense of positivity. But did I eventually accept my new mission? Yes, upon acknowledging my fears, I accepted it. But how did I reach this point?

Like Jesus in Matthew 26:38, who said, “I am deeply grieved, even to death… My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from me; yet not what I want but what you want,” I found myself torn between my fears and the will of God expressed through my Congregational leaders. After some reflection, I questioned how I could contribute to the growth of my Congregation, reminding myself that being a member is not just about adding to the numbers but making a significant impact.

Our Founder, Fr. Mathias Wolff, SJ, emphasized, “In other institutes, people aim at the performance of penance; we, however, do not. What I want from you is that in all things you will be obedient, so that you will go to whatever place you are sent through obedience.” This understanding helped me realize why I had to accept the mission to my country despite my fears. Being obedient means being available to be used by God through the Congregation, helping it achieve its mission. It requires letting go of self-interest, being ready to sacrifice, and humbly submitting to our leaders.

I have realized that obedience unlocks a sense of positivity and possibilities. It doesn’t immediately eliminate fear but begins the process of accepting and preparing to face challenges. Initially, the weight of the maiden mission caused fear, and I was not ready to accept it. However, once I agreed to the decision of my leaders, I embraced my fears, which helped me prepare for the mission.

Why did I accept my new mission? Offering oneself when obedience calls make one useful. I felt that was the moment the Congregation needed my contribution. Had I waited for a more convenient time, it would have been in my interest, not the Congregation’s. Obedience means leaving one’s comfort zone and not prioritizing convenience.

In conclusion, obedience leads to true freedom by overcoming fear and enabling us to make meaningful contributions to our Congregation and its mission.